to the writings that i do not publish but share with a few for critical evaluations, the almost universal immediate reaction is the question: “if things are that bad and going to get that much worse, what am i supposed to do? just give up?”
not in the least, for the human experience is so very short. it is not to be missed, for even under the worst of conditions, life contains moments of illumination and serenity that transcend so far as to suggest some form of divine providence beyond anyone’s capacity to comprehend.
“balance” is the key.
or “supply and demand” in more prosaic terms. finding and executing one’s own proper “balance” is the hard part, but it’s rewards are incalculable.
the balance between self and others. the balance between making the most of what has been given to you and leaving behind a better place than the one with which you were entrusted. the balance between the proper respect for and knowledge of the past, the future it portends, and the present in which course adjustments must be made. the balance between forgetting and remembering, between forgiving and penalizing, and between applying the same standards to yourself as you do to others. between discipline and spontaneity, between emotion and reason, between under and over reaching, the functionality of honesty and deceit, the role of imagination and verifiable proof.
such balances are not standards or norms to be achieved and maintained. they are ideals to be sought in perpetuity, as a habit. for if they were to be scored as baseball batting averages, i would assert that no one who has ever lived to adulthood has ever batted more than .100
to continue the baseball analogy, it is up to each of us to make the most of every turn in the batter’s box. to be patient in waiting for the right pitch, ever wary of the potential of a bean ball, always aware of the responsibility riding on your performance. swinging for a single or a double when conditions warrant, and avoiding the habit of trying to hit a home run every time. (it is no accident that baseball’s greatest home-run hitters also accrued the most strike-outs)
it can very well be argued that a Life is best measured, again in baseball terms, by the number of runs batted in and the wins a team accrues, and that any individual’s statistics are only properly evaluated in the context of the team’s record.
yet seemingly incongruously, every individual’s assessment of themselves is more comprehensive than any other, for only they know the intimate conditions under which they made the decisions. ultimately the difference between what one thinks of themself and how others assess them is yet another “balance” that each of us must make and adapt to on our own terms. it is in that exercise/process that the value of Mark Twain’s axiom concerning “intentions” becomes indispensable.
stephenhsmith 28Jun2009